Regret, Pain, Numb

I've done nothing all-day.

Drowning in the should-haves.

No games to numb the pain.

Is that why I feel bad?

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But I'm on a new route,

Turning over a leaf

I don't want to sit, idle.

Wasting time on livestreams.

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But what else can I do?

I know the answer. It stings.

I've a backlog, which to choose

A list of activities.

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Nothing

I've done nothing.

I feel nothing.

I am no-

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No!

I felt great yesterday.

No!

I felt God's love and grace.

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So?

The answer is clear in this case.

Oh?

Yes, I must kneel and pray.